College Student...?

Uh, so I should use the term "college student" loosely. I am only taking one class this semester. Sheesh. It really sucks. I messed up a lot because of what my advisement report told me so here I am, without any real schedule this semester. At least I have a "break" from all this stress. It's an English class so at least it's important to my major. I'm wasting money, but maybe I shouldn't think about college as being a waste of money or not. Time, yes, or maybe. Money, no. It's an investment. Or rather, I have to convince myself it is.

I worry about my family, which is having problems. Or rather, it's my mother who is having problems. Money is on her mind and the time and I wish I didn't screw up this semester so that I could be on track to help her. What a few thousand dollars of debt for my college education compared to her $50K debt to pay for the house, if she can get that loan that is. I wish I could do more for my mother, but I won't weight her down with my debt the way other people do their parents. I want to be self sufficient if I can. It's going to take a few years to pay off, but I can pay it off in a certain amount of time so long as I work consistently and for a good pay. I have no worries about myself. I do worry for my mother who cannot even afford the house, though. What to do about that?

There are times when my boyfriend John will tell me that when we get married (well, he actually says "if" because it hasn't happened yet) he'll help me take care of my family. He tells everyone how he can get rich immediately, and I don't want to doubt him. He gives a lot of money to other people and it's hard to lie so consistently and accurately each time. I want to put my trust in him. He's my boyfriend after all. I believe God will grant him many opportunities so that he can be capable of doing such greatness. I'd be happy if he could help out my family, but that's in the future. What worries me is the right now, however God will provide. He always does. How dare I worry while I know that everything will go smoothly with God!

I want to instill in my readers, or reader, or the vast empty space that is my audience that God has a plan. I may be a worry wart, but I know I have to let everything go. It's a lot easier.

Starting Out

So, I am sick of trying to wade out all the posts on tumblr to actually to see what's going on with my friends. I like tumblr, but I am getting bored of it. I just want a way to vent to my friends and keep up to date with everyone. I wonder if it's too hard to get people to switch? Tumblr seems to be more of a place for reblogging of random stuff you can never have. I want something like a blog. I hope I can get people to create a blogger. It's been a while since I've blogged properly, so I hope this goes well.

Life is going well outside of school. I found a new job in a gynecology clinic as a file clerk so I shall be filing and scanning papers for 8 hours 3 times a week. Crazy. I don't look forward to how boring the job will be, but perhaps it'll be better than I think. How else do the other employees do it for about 5 years? School is crap. I don't know if my fall semester will be dropped or not. I just know I'll be busy if I stay in school. I definitely will miss my boyfriend! Sucks. I hate that summer is coming to an end, but I shall cope.

Oh, God has blessed me so much this year. I am so happy.... (^-^)